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hanya darimu

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agar mampu aku berada dihatimu.

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namamu kesebut tikaku rindu

hanya namamu di hatiku

hanya dikau di ingatanku.

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bersama , sehati dalam satu cinta

rinduku padamu tak terucap

walaupun baru sehari tak ku temu.

untuk : E2

I'm bored.  D:   

ai _______ him.

Lalaaalaa.

Aqilah Lame-O currently chatting with Liyana Crapmeat. Amalina is online now. But the ebuddy is haywiring.

Someone , who i dont knw hu texted me yesterday. He introduce himself : Suhail from Jurong Sec.

The 1st msg was : Hello , Qilah Sayang.

I was like.. hu the hell is this person. Unknown.  I got this feeling tat its a prank. Fcuk.

I asked him hu give him my n.o ? He replied..: My friend frm CWD. But he tell me not to tell he give me your n.o.

I was like cb ahhh.    I bet ni keje Azan siaa. Hu the bloodyhell give him my n.o. So brave sia dat Suhail call me sayang. Go die lahh.. Idont even knw hu the hell are you , BOY !!

Saperr jerrr.

Laalaaalaaa. Bored.

Aiz never text. Yesterday otp wit him for like 1/2 hr.

Scooby. Scooby can sing. Bluek. Can vomit blood.. Hahaa.. Joking. He talk childishly.. and hell yea.. we debate on being mature or childish. Lame.. but yet fun. Gerek kan kan kan.. I think he win.. Ya.. Bobal no fullstop sia.. :)

To be continue..

In life.. there's always ups and downs. We like it.. we dislike it.. we just got  to face it. Smiles, Laughs, Tears...  made up life. 

 Sometimes we feel liek giving up, think back.. why we then hold for so long ?

Sometime you feel like you cant do it, think why others can ?

Sometime you feel, its worthless, then why you still wait ?

Life is short. Be with the one who you love and the one that love you too.

Live your llife to the fullest.

Always remember what goes around comes around.

:) QILAH

Hanya satu yang ku mahu

hanya satu oh dari mu

izinkan aku

mencintaimu dan sentiasa memuja mu..

aaqqiillaah  wwaannttss yyoouuhh.

Today.. He never come. Kay. ):             I kind of ssim him.   Lol. 1 day only sia.   Cwazy ! ~

Feel like calling him now. Budden.. takot ganggu him. So jyea.. Dunknow leyh. Now uploading HengYee's photos and a photo of me and her. :) Class.. was SUPERB. Because got 5 free period uh seyh. 3 period during Home Ec. 1 period during maths . 1 period during MT. Gereeekk. Fun lahh oitt.. Actually quite boring also. Coz ntg to do.  Then just now got.. cosplay ..costume play.. i guess.. hehee.. The participant need to dress up like a character they have read in a book. So yea.. There was Mr Bean.. harry potter, dracula.. many more lahh...

Raeesa, Sorfina , Muffies , was good.. So yea.. i know one of them will be 1st. And .. Sorfina won the 1st prize. Raeesa i think, 4th.. Muffies.. 2nd or 3rd ? so yea.. Heehee. Raeesa was cute. :P 1st time see her dress like that. Not bad not bad eyh.. Thumbs up*

Sorfina was ..... awesome !   Her eng ahh.. fuyooohh.. power   ! The way she speaks was like.. full of confidence ? Heeeheee. :) Congrats gurl ! :)

After school go Pasar " Malam" with Dewi, Natasha and Dion.

Dewi and natasha bought the potato.. I bought char kwey the one with sotong then add mayo.. blablabla.. not that nice.. then Dewi and Natasha go sweetalk.. me and Dion go busstop. Then bus 30 come..

I just board it.. coz cnt tahan the scorching weather.. Then.. Dion also board the same bus. Taht " budakkk minah " also got in the same bus.. Sit 2 seats away from me.. sibokkk jerr !! Gy naek atas uhh .. byk MATS perh pat atas.. :X She sat there quietly.. GOOD. If she disturb me.. i swear i'm gonna freakk out at her.. " YOU BEACH! " She was quiet.. I wonder why.. If they walk tgt the 5-6 of them in one " gang" ( not ! group , k whatever), she very noisy one  Bubble lebih jer .. habok pun taraq. Bluekxxx arhhhh .  Tkot uh tuu.. :) but its good she shut the hell up. YAY !  She look at me.. i look at her. What stare, stare.. not happy isit ? Thats ur freaking problem eh gurll . MINAHHHH wannabe , but will never be. Stepsteppppp..  Keekeek.. :) so funny you know those gurls. In group ahh. fuuhh.. can talk bullshit infront of me.. embarrass me like hell.. wen one to one with me.. look.. walk away. Why scared ahh ? Coward . Hahaaas.. Talk alot of bad words here.. :) * peace*

I'm currently bored now.. Seriously. Liyana never online. Tort of meeting iNa just now.. but then she got training.. ohyea.. i forgot.. so lalaalala..Thats all..

will post later

Adioussss 1

Aqilah Outt,

I look forward to school everyday.. just to see you for a minute or two .

ai_____ yu ( fill in the blank)

200410   .                   Was never a regret .... you made me smile .. eventhough its the slightest things.

If only you could be mine.. ?

Ohwell..

I'm waiittinngg for you & only you.

Hanya ___________ di hatiku..

aku masih menunggu.

Today was boring. Really. He never come today. :(  . Had eng in AVA room.. gerekk..   just bcoz of the air-conditioner. Then.. yea.. nntg much lah today.  After skul got leadership course. Gosh. It was quite boring. Got this game lah.. need to use straws to built a highest point. Laugh a lot while making. Liyana was like giving up and I was so blurr. Sotong.. huhuh .  Then. Break. Called E2. But cannot talk much,, tats wat he said..  Then.. yea.. boring. Then.. go accompany Dewi go buy this food.. i forgot the name rdy ... soooo.. then..   taste that food a little.. Nice eyh. Wanna buy it tmrw. Weee ~~  cant wait to eat that stuff. Worth it lah oii if buy. Hahaa.. Well short post.

Tata.

Takecaires. Aqilah Outt ~

Made a DECISION.

 And I hope this is the RIGHT one .

Wish me luck !

Love,

Aqilah :)

(P/S: I'm waiting for you . You attracts my eyes.. then you attracts my heart. Its you . I dont pour hopes. I dont expect much. But this is a wish.. a wish for you to be mine. The way you smile.. the way you made me smile. A slightest thing you do.. it just make my day..  )

Lovesparks.. just  touch me :)

1stly.. waited for that Ashiqin at canteen during morning. Hell. I bet she was late. So was alone .. i mean sitting alone. Bored. =.=  Then.. Qinqin text.. haha.. so yea.. waited for her at the AVA room around there.. the back gate.. so yea.. saw her walking in..blablabla.. yadayadayada.  Then.. accompanied her go locker. Hahaaa. Then.. was almost bellring. I so dumb just now dunknw how to bring bag.. end up frm 3rd floor.. go canteen.. then mr Z announced tat assembly in form teacher homeroom. So yea.. frm canteen go 3rd floor again. Hais =.= excercise. Yea. Ryte. :P Then suddenly when taking bag.. i got this cramp. Oucchhh. Then got this sec 1, bump into me. So.. lalaaalaa.. Still having tat cramp. Went up to class. Flag raising. Suddenly the Majulah Singapura come out. Then like.. Quickly stand up. Then.. natasha i dunknw hu lah go throw something. Showed the middle finger. Wats the big issue eh ? Middle finger onli.. Lalalaa.. Got cramp.. Holding my stomach.. Somewhere below it.. Ohh.. dun get me wrng.. Nt that below. Hahaaa.. Dont think to that extreme. Hahaaa. Then.. yea.. Mdm Ng asked.. why ? I said ___________ cramp..  Actually i dunknw whether its the ______ cramp.. i anyhow say wan. Then.. go toilet.. blablabla.. ask natasha to come, coz i forgot to take tissue... Tat skul not hygenic sia... No tissue.. No pail. Aiyohhh =.= Then.. blabla.. lessons per normal.

Music class , watch that alvin and the chipmunk 2.. With the chippettes or something.. dunknw how to spell.. Watch that movie so many times rdy coz got the cd. Lalaalaa . Go recess.. Duty.. Eat my chicken. Hungry.

Zzzz...

Results sucks.. So dont ask me. Thank You. Appreciate that .

My parents surely gonna to have date with my teacher. Neat 1 ( not !)

Oh ya.. Assembly rocks. Beatboxing !! I love it. The beat-boxer was Hakim. He was awesome. Seriously. Then.. yea.. was this 98.7 rapper.. lalaala. there's this song.. quite nice.. hehee.. eventhough he said those lyrics like bullettrain. Rap mahh.. waht do i expect to hear then ? Haaahaa.

Then . . texted E2. He nvr reply. Tort of going back wit hym. Then.. Mr Z say SCs nyd to mit Mdm Aida nd Mr Ng.. so blabla.. recite the pledge. Aisha forgotten it. So.. then.. talk abt PTC. Kay shaddap. Then.. talk abt recess duty. Pamela in-charge of planning the recess duty. Yayayaya.. Then. did this thing whatever lahh..

Crap !

Thenn...  dismissed. Saw E2. Gosh. See him at the phone booth there. So then.. saw his adq.. QA . Kiutt siaa. Tak leyh angzz. Mcm nk cubit cubit jerrhh . Haaaaha.. Then.. said hi.. then.. said something.. mls mau type.  Thenn.. feel like wanna lepak somewhere with Qinqin. So.. go to the benches infront of toilet. Woah. Saw him there. Haaahaa. Drinking the water cooler. Hm. Went up to him.  Said something. Then realise we were talking infront of the toilet. Hahaa. Then sit somewhere. In public not private.

I felt vibes going thru me. Try to keep myself calm. But then cannot. When i'm nervous. .. My voice go down. and yea.. will talk like rubbish.. Just maen hembus never tthink. Hahaa. Thats me ! So yea. Talk abt random stuff. Nisha and Qinqin saw us. Other ppl saw us too. Hu cares ? lalaalalala.. Then suddenly feel like awkward. Then.. he said goodbye.. Tag him along. Then.. go busttop with Qinqin go mit Feli. Hahaa.. Miss her lots. Hang out with Chrole, See kei, heng yee.. qinqin.. pamela.. and feli ofcoz .. at west coast plaza. Tot of going to west coast park.. budden.. like go there ntg better to do. So.. yea.. qinqin left first. Took foto with HY. Was tired of walking..so we sit one side.. See toodlers. Cutee. Hehee..

Ohwell.. long post..

tired of typing rdy. haha.

Tatas.

Aqilah outt.

Yesterday.. was bad mood. So didnt write much. Hhaaaa.. Yesterday Leadership course/ talk.. was quite fun. Hahaa.. Especially when we played this game. The one we have to stand on the logs.. and when each person hold at the end of the log. Haahaa. The trainer, Mr Lau, was like : Ahh.. she light as feather lahhh.. easy wan..   I was like.. is that a compliment or is that an insult. Haahaa. Well.. i was in group B. Group A won the entire game. So jyea.. We were later for a few minutes only..  Nevermind. So yea.. it was fun . I love balancing on those logs. Heehee. :) It was raining heavily when we got home .. Take 143 with Dewi.. Called Aiz . Otw home . Yea..  I heard him laugh.. So funny sia.. Like scooby only. Heehee. Kacau him.. call him scooby. Cute or waht.. Lalalala.. ahh..scooby !! Called him uncle.. scooby and then datok. Haaahaaa. Neat ! TAlk to him for like 10 mins.. then hung up. The later part of the day was nt as bad as during art. Art suckkssss..

Hm.. thats all fer yesterday..
will post on today  on another post, Geez. :)

Today was HORRIBLE .

Someone or some 4 screwed me up.

Burst out during Art period. Fcuk. Horrible..

Natasha nvr come today. Haiss.. If she come, surely dont feel that left out or alone. Haiss =.=

I never do anything why you all do this to me ?

Where i go wrong ?

Haiss.. You guys disturb me.. i dont even say anything... And i tort you guys will stop. Haiss.. Stoppit please. I had enuf rdy . Its around 2 months you guys are disturbing me. I dont wish to  yell at you guys I'm keeping my mouth shut.. and i was expecting you

guys to do the same . I never disturb you guys, so, you dont disturb me. If you dont wish to even talk to me, then just dont talk.. Why must you guys make such bad remarks ? If you guys dont like me, then just stay away frm my life by nt even mentioning my name. Just think that we are strangers?  I'm nt asking you guys to be nice to me. No ! I dont force you to do that. Just 1 thing.. stop insulting me..   or whatever bad stuff you guys owaes mentioning abt me. I dont mention bad things front and back abt you guys.. so can you guys do me that favour ? Thats all i ask . You guys are really hurting me so much. I'm keeping my mouth shut not because i'm MUTE, but i dont want to create an issue. I dont want to fight. Not only with you guys.. i just want to stop fighting with other people too. LIfe is short. I want my life to be full with happiness..  and not misery all the way.   Please understand.. WIll you guys like it if people keep insulting you ? Saying bad things behind and infront of you ? Surely you guys will be pissed off ryte ? Surely you guys will say, all those harsh words and yell and so on.      Correct ? How long can you take it ?

My patience has a limit. And just now.. my limit was over the line..   I cry ? so what? it help me to calm down. Its better than to yell and let everybody know you're angry. I'm not the type that like to scold people.. yell here.. like an attention seeker. Staying quiet ..   Its me. No one really see the angry side of me..    No one really know how i react if i'm angry.. I dont wnant to show it. Please. Hais =.= Stoppit lahh.

Honestly,

Aqilah.

Whats love when you cant get that person ?

Whats love when the person dont love you back ?

Whats love when seeing someone you love, love someone else ?

Whats love, when you're always get hurt ?

Whats love when it just dont go on your way ?

Whats love when you wait for so long when you know where you stand ?

Whats love when you're denying you do not, when you do ?

Whats love when you know, you cannot make the one you love to love you back. If you can.. you're AMAZING.

And how i wish , i can learn & apply that. :'(

I  Some  Times  Dont  Feel  Like  Loving  Anybody

It  Hurts.....

A LOT.

Sincerely.

Nur Aqilah .

170510

Hellows.

170510

someone burfday.

Wish him thru msg just now.

He said thanks, and ask me who am i ?

I was like.. Aqilah ??

He replied. Oh.. haha.. sori.. sorii.. thanks niwaes

I asked: You delete my n.o  ?

He replied : Uh-uh

I said : bye

He delete my n.o? While I didn't.

I can remember his n.o and he didnt.

Oh well.. Wasnt expecting that.

Drop it !

Results.

Maths paper 1 = bad

Science= Double bad

MT = Not bad.

Geo MCQs = not that bad

2 papers .. i know i failed them. Science and Maths . My only hope now is MT which i already pass.. wonder how much i get for my listening compre. . without that LC , ill probably get A2. Haiss.. I want to get A1 luhss.. Eng.. i know i pass.. The paper was not that hard.. So yea.. my hope. Home ec. my hope. Literature.. was easy. My hope.  The rest hopeless. Lalaa.. Prepaid top-up. First person that i called was Aiz. Actually no. my mum call me five minutes afta i top-up.. pandai mak aku. :) tahu tahu jer aku da top-up. Smart smart.. Next up.. who's birthday ? ASHIQIN.

Hehees. Present present present. Waht can i buy fer her ? Ideas ? hehees.

E2 never come today. Sad liou. Sobsob. :( sedih uhh.. Really. eventhough i just seem to not like really show i was sad.. but deep inside i''m really sad.

Go home , taking ILY bus. 143 lah eyh. Hehe. Double-decker. Went up 2nd. Pack. The CWDS sec ones. God ! Totally pack with them. And they sit one by one. Like , can they like  occupied both of the seats, then leaving it empty and sit behind. I mean you people are friends what.. Whats wrong sitting next to each other eyh ? Haiss =.= Was cramp. With my hill-like bag and my food. And my books. Gosh , feels like a retarded. Thanks eyh cher. Never use any books today. =.= Buat berat aku jerhh. 

t0o lazy to type anymore. Thats all fer now.

TAkecaires.
Aqilahoutt. :)

I'm bored. Cant get in to MSN. Haisss. =.= Well. MSN freaks me out just now. Was in the middle of a conversation with Aiz and Liyana.. It end up.. connectionn lost. :( Its raining now. :D Love it. Not that hot anymore. Alhamdulillah ( praises to God) :) Heeehees. Weeee~ Found my eng compre paper back ! Lucky siaa. Smiless* I'm hungry now. Wanna eat soon. hahaa. Yeahh. Haaahaa. Short post. Ntg much.. Just bored. Geez. : ) 

Tata (s)

Lols.
Hahaa.

Aqilah Outt.

Its isnt love

and I know I shouldnt say that

but with you

it just seems to give me a piece of life

I wonder why ?

You brighten up my days

and give me care

you let me smile

on my worst days

I treasure you

i cherish you

with my heart and soul

i dedicate this to you.

:) Aiz.

I know i have been hard. I know youre tired. You listen to me. You cheer me up. I know i'm childish , I know i'm wrong. I know i take it too seriously, i admit, my fault. I'm sorry for my attitude. I'm sorry for my behaviour.  I'm sorry for being sensetive .. countless times . I know that. I admit that. I know its been always been me who started it. I forgive and forget each time you apologise. Please stay and dont leave. Cause youre my sun to my shine. Youre great, youre awesome. Thanks for being here for me. Thanks for being my shelter when theres rain pouring on me. I love you dear friend :)

:) Aiz.

I dont feel like quiting, but I feel like stepping back.

I feel bad, but i still want to continue.

I feel its useless, but I'm still waiting.

Three words

Eight letters

Three syllables

Five vowels

Three consonants

Two nouns

One emotion

many meanings

A big lie

 A rare truth

I love you

What is love?

In math, a problem. In history, a battle.

In science, it's a reaction. In art, it's a heart.

But to me? Love is simply to be with youh.

Simply some quotes. Heehees. Kind of nice . :) I loike it.

I'm bored. Cannot text people .. due to the low prepaid. Sobsob. Hope I remember to bring extra $$ to school tmrw. Top-up ! Yeah. Dad just give $10 ? Haiss.. Need to use my own money .. $10  not enuf eyh. Use 1 day can finish rdy . Hehe.

Its 3 weeks Today !

Time fly so fast eyh. Soon gonna be a month. Woahh.. Cant wait. Hahaa. Well.. hm.. you just bring some life to me eventhough we're just friends :) Thanks. dude ! !  Bro Afad is online now. Dont feel like talking to him. Didnt wish our 2 months yesterday. I dont care lahh.. I just want to avoid him. And yea.. want him to stay away frm my life . Not that i hate him.. its just that i lose respect for him. Great pretender. I dont Favour  pretender. So yea.. just get lost pretenders. :) Thank Youh . He doesnt even know abt this blog. Hu care ? I swear he will give me a long grandmother story. And and what ? Expect me to believe every single word ? Well. I'm not as dumb as you. Nak tipu pun tak agak agak . Booh. * Thumbs down* Tomorrow skuling. Looking forward to it yet.. dont feel like going. Thanks to 2 different person. I hope everything will be fine tomorrow. Seriously. Hope everthing go on my way. Tomorrow got MT. Shud i wish him a happy birthday  ? Shud I not ? i still remember last year 16 May.. When we talk about burfdays.Hmm.. History. Sometime i just like to look back to history to see where we gone wrong . That Nokia hp.. Store everything.. Since febuary 2009 - september 2009. Haiss.. Have not touch that phone for so long. Its okay.. Tort of throwing or selling off the phone.. But.. hais. kind of.. you know.. like the feeling of lost if you give away something you had treasure before. That NOKIA is my only memories with him. Yes.. I know.. We have to let go. But.. Hais.. I dont know. I know, and ii'm sure that i dont have any feelings for him. Thats what i'm really sure of. How sure? Hm. Really sure ? Lalalalalala. Comforting someone now. Yea. Hm. . In love there is always ups and downs. Cry if that can make you feel better. Dont stop if you still want to cry :D Love quotes. Hahaaas. Pluz eyh aqilah. Stoppit. Hehes. Oh well.. will update later. * Winks*

Takecaires.

Aqilah Outt .