Tired.

Actually not really. Just came back. Went to East Point Mall, then go CGH. My grandmum is warded there. So yea. Mum feed her.. and i was bored like hell. This patient very noisy. Shout shout shout. Blahs. Saw Hadi & he saw me too at the MRT station. Went up.. saw Shanie and Husaini. I dont think they recognize me .. Apeape jer lahh.. Ate alot today.. So whuat ? Hahaa. :D Never text anyone today. Dont feel like it. I mean didnt chat .. did text.. but was just a very short msg. Sleep for almost the whole journey back home. Board bus 30. Woke up when it reach CWDS busstop there.. Saw Mithela and two other indian ladies.. Hahaa.. I think she saw me sleeping in the bus just now. Hahaa. Paiseyh * blusshhh* Tomoro thought of making muffins.. Dunknw why. Hahaa. Just feel like it..  Bored like hell now. Seriously. Nevermind.. Ntg much. Cuz is out. Bored.. Long tyme no see. ):

( Cried yesterday... bcoz of.... ___________) Nevermind.. Still kind of sad lahhh.. Ohwell.. what to do..

Takecaires.

Aqilah Outt

Tired.. No more fytes puhlease..?

Kirekan dah settle ryte ? Hmm.. you admit it.. you apologise.. just wait for me to really sincerly forgive you and forget what you did.

Someone is being sacarstic eyh.. ? And i dont quite like it. Mintak ampun sia ..  tak lehh angzz. hehee.. Hmmphh.. I said you change. And then you said i change. So .. in summary.. we changed. Oh well.. so now we are two different person ? Haahaa. If change, coz  i want to.. and i'm nt pointing finger to who that made me tis way. Its my life after all..

Currently listening to hindustan song , kind of nice lahh.. the melody.. the lyrics.. sumpah satu benda aku tak paham. :)

You May Be by Vishal Dadlani , Shekhar Ravjiani

Sis download taht song.. So .. yeea.. suddenly it just played randomly on my playlist. Hahaa.. and im just to lazy to change since its not that bad.. Haha..

Went to Bugis, Arab St and Ikea just now.. Hahaa.. I nvr buy anything.. Haha. Broke ah. And no one sponsoring me.. hahaa. :(  Just came back . Haha.. And am tired.. But yea.. just post lohh.. Slept at 1 am yesterday. Coz hear Ria.. and it was goddamn hot.. Sleep in sweat. .. Hahaa.. Ashiqin just text saying tat she saw Sirdhaus( that jerk ) , at his mum Cafe.. i was like.. REALLy ?!! And guess what.. he was the one who serve the food. Baekkk ahh.. Ashiqin... !!! How was ur reaction. ?? Hahaha..  Sirdhaus.. Long tyme no talk.. haha.. i dun bother oso. lalalala.. Your prob eyh.. IDC abt you animore.. you pun kan ? Hahaaa.. Ashiqin what a great shock you had.. Aku pun nak.. hahaaa.. ( no, thanks)  Hahaa..

Kay.. i'm bored.. Tmrw.. out againn.. Haiss.  Penattt siaa.. Its raining now.. Chill babeee.. Hhaahaha.

Aqilah Outt !

Takecaires.

Bored.

Nervous.

PTC. I hate youh !

All the sec twos hate you !

Last day of school . Forgot to say farewell to my friends. Hehee. 1 month , peeps !

Went home with Sab & Shiqin. Laugh like hell.  " Home rock ! "  Funny siaaa.. Hahahahaha..  Yea. K never come today. Cant expose here wat realy happen. Blahs. Tmrw PTC . Great ~! ( so not !)  The ferst thing mum ask me was, " Exam pass?" I was like, " no fail" And yea.. mum begin her nags. Its like a replay. Every 3 times in a year i will hear that same old nag . You nag also no use. Seriously. Like as if i can get any smarter by nags. Agree ? Hahaaa. Spellbound was BORING. Was sweating like hell.. Sitting in the hall feel like sitting in an oven. Those fans really needs a replace. Can they like store air-cond in the hall. Confronted her. She confess abt the ferst one. Hm.. The 2nd one.. haiss.. she denied. Ohwell..  Lalalalaa..  he nvr come today. haais. Gonna see you in a mnth time. D:   I mish you this days.  I really do. And that song keeps replaying in my mind.. and that song remids me of you. Ohhh boii !

:)


260510 ..
Heehees. Was suppose to be yesterday post. So yea..
It was save as a draft.

AqilahOutt. 

Specially & directly to Acha Starsy. Heehes.

Hey gurl ! Thanks for everything that you helped me for this past days. Thanks a lot. I know that i have troubled you and yea.. now you are also in that circle. I'm sorry. I didn't know this will happen. Thanks for taking that risk and still continue to help me. You've been a great help. Thanks for siding and being loyal to me . At least now i know i have a true friend who will really go thick and thin together with me.  I hope they will not harm you . Eventhough there are fights now, you still did a right thing. May God bless upon you. He is pressuring you to stop siding me and to side him.  And i hope you wont turn back. You're the only one now who i can rely and truly trust now. I hope you wont betrayed my trust like how she did it.  I appreciate what you've done to help me. Thanks .. a lot. 

  I love you , sis !

With love,

Nur Aqilah

Tis post will be in malay. Sorri . Dunknw how to realy express it. heehes.

Hais.. Geram siaa.. Pt luar... senyum.. pt dalam maki mcm replay siot. Tak paham , tak paham aku..  asl lah manusia sekarang suke ber-talam dua muka ? Asl lah..depan tunjok baek.. then sanggup tikam dari belakang. SAKITKAN HATI AKU secretly ? Eventhough its no more a secret. Tak sangka,.. org yang aku anggap kawan. . rupanya hanya musang berbulu ayam. Sayang . Tak sangka, di dalam persahabatan ada juga namanya..   perancangan buruk. Unbelieveable. Mahu nya tak maki ? Geram sakkk.. Asl nk berlakon ni sume ?  Kalau orang tak bilang eyh.. agaknya aku tak tahu sape kau.. your true colours. Seriously. Aku percaya kau. Aku anggap kau kawan aku.. then kau buat aku gini ? kau komplot dgn dorang ? Dah kenapa? kau blame aku pasal aku ,dorang brothers gadoh ? Huh !?! Sial. Aku jugakk lah yang salah. Lagi lagi aku , aku, aku. Kalau dah kena batang hidung sendiri.. baru tahu apa aku rasa. Sebab kau tak pernah rasa lah sebab tu kau ckp gitu. Kau piker.. bila org da buat kau malu, sedih , ada kau ingat kau akan pikir pasal friendship dorang yang ganggu kau tu sume . eyh.. peduli apa aku.  Seriousy. aku tak paham apa kau nk? asal kau buat gni ? kalau tak suka aku.. ckp. senang ! Takyah nk prank prank ni sume . And kau taktahu the whole entire history... tkmo ckp byk ahh. Eyh.. kan bgs eyh.. kalau satu satu yng salahkan aku ni kena apa yang aku kena.. KAN BAGOS ?? Nanti baru korang agree satu satu dgn aku. Haiss =.=   Abeh salahkan aku pasal aku dorang brothers gadoh ? Eyh.. memang si hitam tu yang ckp nama K. Salah aku ? Aku at ferst memang tak tulis pun nama K. Bile aku dah tahu , itupun si hitam yang ckp, aru aku tulis nama K. And i even wrote there, EVEDIENCE : ________ MESSAGE. And even si HITAM tu suroh aku tulis nama K.  And i wrote to Mr Z wat i knw.. Ape yang aku  tak tahu.. atau unsure.. aku ckp dgn mr Z aku UNSURE. Ape lg kau nak bobal ? Dah sah sah si hitam yang cari gadoh sndiri. Tak nk mati sorang.. heret org laen. Salah aku ?!! Semua salah aku ahh ni !!! ?!! Huh !?!! Pegi ahhh side dorang eyh.. Lebih pentingkan dorang .. perasaan dorang.. friendship dorang.. daripada aku.. perasaan aku.. friendship kita ? Tu kau tak amek peduli.

Dah lahh.

Happy 1 month, Friend !

I wonder if you really care ?

Ohwell. I do.

My life now its truly like a real drama you people watch on tv. Hahaas. Seriously. So many conflicts. Conflicts ? Sound weird.  Like.. I'm only fourteen.. :)

People pointing fingers. Can you guys just admit ? Since you guys are so brave to did those things to me.. but why now acting like a corward.. pointing figers.. denying here and there. K was really burning like fire. .  Someone was like blamming me for letting the bro(s) fight . EYh.. wtf siaa..  Now what.. i'm the bad one lahh.. kncb. Some people just dont know how to point fingers without knowing whats really happening. TAK KENA BATANG HIDONG SENDIRI, TAKMO BANYAK BOBAL AHH ! Bingit sakk...  Now.. people are pointing fingers at K. And everyone is siding Hitam. Azan ? Dunknw lahh.. i guess people are siding her to. I dont believe that K did all those. Its owaes Hitam dat did it. Haiss..  Why are people just being extra.. and dunknw the WHOLE ENTIRE story , the PAIN in my heart.. the way they TEASE me... and dare to say, " why must i tell Mr Z".

Hey ! I tell you what.. If people been hurting your feelings for months .. do you think you can stand ? I bet.. its onli for a month at most.. and there you fall.. tear urself up. Hey.. I got feelings to. They are treating me like DOLL. Can say anyhow. Mind your \words. So people.. if you guys dont understand how i felt.. with great HONOUR , PLEASE KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT. AND STOP BLAMMING PEOPLE IF YOU GUYS DONT KNOW THE WHOLE STORY. I, myself.. dunknw hu really did it.. why must you guys believe only one party.. and then.. like so sure.. tell me its K.

Like someone said, "SOME PEOPLE ARE PUTTING UP MASKS, TO HIDE THEIR REAL INTENTIONS"  I was dumfounded when i heard that quote. And i realise.. i forgotten abt that. 

Kalau tak buat, takyah takot. Berani kerana benar, takot kerana salah. Kalau berani buat, berani ah tanggung. Kalau tak salah.. tkyah takot pape uh. Tell the truth. You admit it.. Dont deny anything. If seriously you are found to be denying, i bet.. its gonna be worse . Denying = lying. Remember that.

PEOPLE STOP POINTING FINGERS @ ME OR THEM. YOU PEOPLE DUNKNW WHAT I TELL MR Z,  DONT BLINDLY ACCUSE ME FOR ACCUSING PEOPLE.

With love,

Aqilah.

My misery shall end tomoro. I'm hurt enough. And now. My patience had reach it limit. I cant stand the nonsense anymore.  Black, K, Azan .. gonna have to deal with Mr Z tomorow. Didnt write Kapak name as he did not hurt me as much as, Black, K and Azan does. So yea.. I tell Mr Z the truth. The whole history. But some i keep it to myself.. as it is confidential. There's alot more to write but yea.. i just wrote some.  I just cannot stand it anymore. And 2 of my friends said, if i take no actions.. things will beome much more serious. So yea..  eventhough i was quite unsure whether i should tell or not.. i just did with the support of my friends. ILY peeps. * muah* With enough evidence.. i meet up Mr Z.  My name, Black, K, Azan may be called tmrw during flag raising. Good luck to me. Black.. text me.. denying the fact , he gave me a :( face. Do you think i'll fall for it ? I'm sorry. I'm stubborn.  When i cry infront of you..   SOBBING AND CRYING AND HOPING for you to stop. Did you stop ? Did you even give a damn care ? Did you even wish to say sorry ? DO YOU ? NO . So why must i pity you now. WHO ARE YOU ?  You dont even bother to stop, why must i bother to pity you ?  You'RE NO ONE TO ME. I wonder why you point figers at K. What the hell.., I tort you guys brothers ? Lol. Kind of funny you know. Claim youselves to be brothers.. end up pointing fingers and even ask me to write K name. Woahhh. Amazing. I was about to NOT write K name.. when i know who SPIT at my bag. Thanks Black. You've been resourceful. Thanks for helping me find more evidence to prove you guys wrong. The messages are now with me. And i have the back-ups copy of them.  You should tell me that before i see Mr Z. Now is too late. You dont know me. I wont turn back. When i made my decision thats final. When I start on something.. I wont stop until i reached the end. I keep quiet doesnt mean i dont care and let you people say what you want. I care. I allow fer now. Like i say. There is a limit to my patience. I wont yell , i wont shout. I go by the right way. Just see tomorrow. I hope my misery ends tomorrow. I'm tired.

And .. really.. i carn believe my sister is siding themm.. haiss.. kene batang hidung sendiri.. then tahu rasa.. haiss..

 During P.E was fcuking angry. Truly unexpected. I tort we are friends.. and this is how you treat me. It really shows your true colours now eyh. You dare ask me whats wrong. Go ask yourself. Ask waht you did.  I may not be clever, but I'm not dumb. How can you play a role with those guys ? You think its fun? eyh.. hell yea. i tell you if someone did that to you.. i swear you'll be fcuking angry. Some friend ey you. Its really unexpected. You doing this in the name of fun ? Fun . Let see if someone pranked you.. will you say its FUN. I wonder tomorrow what other bullshit will you tell me ? I pretend i dont know.. tomorrow you see..  you show me your innocent face.. infront of me you act nice.. behind me.. all the bullshits start coming out.  Tgk jer lah esok eyhh. Esok aku explode.. taktahu eyhh.. but yea.. i dont explode that easily.

To Acha : Thanks alot dear. You've been a great help today. I really appreciate it. I believe, you're my loyal friend.

Its been 4 weeks now. Since i know you. You're nice. I just love your gentle-ness, your care and concern. you're understanding. And hell yea.. you're sweet. Sugar ? Haahaa. You're my lolli to my pop. :)

A short post just to say : I cherish and treasure you friend. I really do. I know i'm childish and take things seriously. I know that. I know i'm sensetive. That's so true. Hold on.. coz as time goes by.. you'll get use to it. Trust me. If i seem to be upside down.. dont stop talking to me.. when i'm down.. thats when i really need to talk to someone. I wish you all the best with her. :) I dont find you irritating. Really i dont. Please dont have the intention of changing to a new one. I know you by the old Aiz.. so i want to continue be friends with the old AIz.. and not the new one.

Thats all.

Specially fer you to read : AIZ

Hello.

Yesterday slept at 10 + wait for Aiz to finish eating. End up sleeping while waiting. Kiut hor.. Haaaaaha. Thenn.. dunknw why at 12 + am wake up. Check got msg frm Aiz. Haahaa. Woops. Sorrie.. Terslept. I tort he sleep rdy. Suddeny 1 new msg frm him. Kay.. he is still awake. So chatted fer like an hour.  Then.. he was sleepy so.. he sleep ferst. I was quite wide-awake so yea.. like afta 15 mins.. then i sleep bck. Wake up.. Msg frm e2. Okay.. a veryveryvery shrt reply. Ape ape jer lah..

Sis pinch me just nw.. At my arm. Gosh. Sakettt !! Pain siaa.. I beat her ferst actually. Ntg better to do ryte. Hahaa.  Now.. currently chatting with someone.. Yea. :)   Kind of nice chatting with her. Haaahaa.  Talking abt someone.   Actually i'm tired of people saying thigs abt tat someone.. Since last yr sia.. tak habes habes. Waht to do. I just hope taht someone will realise his/ her mistakes. Hm.. Not gonna mention tat someone name. i think most of you knw hu rdy rite. Yea.. Keep your comments to youself. Dont bother asking me hu. :) No matter wat, he/she is still my friend.. no intention of humiliating him/her :) 

Friends dont bitch one another :)

Happy 4 Weeks Aiz .

Thanks for everything. :D

Time flies so fast eyhh.

Tues, remember eyh wat date. Haahaas.

I'm sorry again for my attitude. Its just me. I'm just being truthful. I dont like to deny.

Its hard. I know. You'll get use to it soon. Then you knw, i'm nt that difficult. GEeez.

* Hug* ily friend.