Fer Aiz.

Not others to read. (eventhough i post it  here..  ignore this)

Did you had a nice sleep yesterday?

I dont.

Slept at 12+am.

When your last msg was at 10+ .

You think i sleep rdy when you sent me tat last text ?

Hell no.

How do you expect me to sleep when seriously you had hurt my feelings?

I'm sensetive, you know. You know it, why didnt you really mind your words.

You mind your words, but tats not ENOUGH mind-ing.

Kay wadeva.

Why you keep on comparing you and him?

I just dont get it.

Did i ever compare me with her* ?

I dont care about the question part.. i care about the comparing part ?

Dont question why i layan you like tat, i layan him like tat. 

Its just like why you layan me like tat , why you layan her* like that.

And if you say it was a joke. trust me, i dont think so.

Yes I admit.. you never SCOLD and NEGLECT  me before.

But seriously.. it somehow . Hurts.

You must say its because i'm too sensetive and stuff ryte ?

Its not. How would you feel.. when you decided to call someone.. and you had inform tat someone..you will call.. and then ..because of some reasons .. you cant call.. and that someone says, " Do wan call .. i no lost..."

In malay its .." taknak call.. tak rugi.."

its like as if.. you dont actually want ME to call. Tak suker?

Yes. I dont talk alot when otp with you. Coz.. I hardly otp with you.

I do talk wit E2, because.. i almost otp wit him.. everyday, i mean, i everynight.

I'm used to texting you.. and not call you.

I'm used to calling him..and not texting you.

Gottit ?

You said talking to me like no shiok?

Then YOU go make the conversation SHIOK.

In my opinion, calling its just not about TALKING TALKING TALKING plainly..

its like about.. when.. we joke around.. making it funny.. and not so formal or seriously..

.You're making it sound so serious.. thats why i do.. the " lalala ..blablabla.. thingy.. "

Gottit.

You know something ?

You said.. i owaes wanted( by saying) to get out of yourlife..

Yes , i did say tat.

But did you question WHY ?

Did you ? NO.

Now i tell you why?

I dont feel like i'm important to you. Nowdays..the way you layan me is different.

Yes.. i'm sure you're gonna say.. because i'm owaes in the bad mood.. tats why you cant layan me goodly..

am i rite?

you sure to put the so call.." blame" to me

Sekarang kan.. if i'm bad mood..sulking.. you just seem to be like avoiding me like tat..

you might not realise it..

.. SOMETIMES WORDS SPEAK LOUDER THAN ACTIONS.

Now, you want me to say, "LEAVE ME , AIZ "

And wht did i replied to you..go check back .. wht i said..

did i scold you. or.. avoid it..

WHAT DID I REPLY ?!

" I said..you're important to me.."

And when the time.. i said " i should get out of your life.."

WHAT DID YOU REPLY ?

You eventually symphatise yourself.. and said.. " WHY DONT YOU JUST SAY YOU WANT ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE. I 'M PROBLEMATIC"

Go look at how you reply when i said,"  isnt it easy if you say i want you out of my life.."

and look at how i reply when You said " " WHY DONT YOU JUST SAY YOU WANT ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE. I 'M PROBLEMATIC"

Different, huh ?

Go read back those texts. I keep them you know.

You pun tahu kan.. kite gadoh gadoh.. actually deep inside.. i still want you in my life kan.

THAT IS WAHT I USUAlLY SAID.

And did you even said those words to me. NO !

You just then start blaming me.. then blaming you fer not being gud enuf and stuff like taht.  . and thats when i feel guilty fer being angry wit you.

Its really hurting you know to fight with you. Seriously. I really hate to fight with people i love. Look at my blog ," about me section"

go read.. is your name there..?

those mention in "about me" is my love ones..

Can you just see.. that you'e important to me?

but Aiz, i didnt feel like you think i'm important to you... seriously..

and thats what hurts me .  .

EVERYTIME WE FIGHT.

thats all.
NurAqilah.