There is always the word , " Jelous"

Yesterday nyte was..  , Bad ?  It WAS bad, but turn out to be quite okay. Hahaas.

I thought i was strong. I mean.. I appear strong.. but then i just realise i was weak. Hm.. I know I'm nt a good friend. I tried comforting you, in the end , i was the one that needs to be comfort. Aqilahh  oh aqilahh. I'm disapppointed wit myself. I cant even comfort you sincerly without having the feeling of jelous. What kind of friend am I ?  I know i shouldnt have this feeling. I'm aint angry... its just jelous.  Jelous.. jelousy kills. Why must i have this feeling anywaes? It isnt right. Maybe i just found you to be better than him ? I'm not sure. I'm trying to not fall for you. But if i do, I apologise. It cant be help. Remember what I told you,

Love cannot be force.

Cannot be express through words.

Can be feel.

So yea.. Hmm.. we see how it goes. The moment you was worried for her, it just shows how much you really care for her. How much you really love her. How i wish there is someone like you who really care about me. Look at you yesterday. You just sound so worried. I wonder if i was there with you, how would your expression be like. Pale ? Hm.. you love her.. thats final. Fullstop. I cant stop you. Its your right. You have always been thinking about rights, right. You're right. I hope she found you caring and not irritating :)   Seriously.

I really shouldnt have that feeling. I was suppose to cheer you up. I tried putting that feeling a side and think of something to make you stay calm, trust me.  But in the end, you are the one asking me to stay calm, funny huh ? I'm so wrong . I'm sorry. Again, i know.

I'm sorry for the way i text you . Like you said, the way i text you was like attitude. I know that. I admit that. I'm aware of that. Thats just me. I guess.. you know me well ready , huh ? 1 word = somethinng is wrong. Hahas. Cool cool. I was being truthful. I hate to deny. Deny = lying. How would you expect me to say, I'm ok, when its actually not. Yea.. i know i made it sound so.. attitude. But i dont actually mean it. I didnt mean that it diesnt help . It helps. A little or so.  I just dont know what was I thinking yesterday. I'm so sorry. I know i have troubled you so much with my childish attitude. Well.. grow up aqilah. Hais ): You have been really great. Youre strong. Help me, I'm weak.

Much love,
Aqilah .